十二 31


年末了,收到任课班级送来的新年日历的礼物,喜欢这喜庆的烫金封面和“把日子过成诗”的调调~

前几天不经意翻到“2013这一年”的旧文[?],除了看到上进的背影,也想起曾有过年终写总结的惯例,去年的“2017会对我更好一点”[?]只算是年终的感慨吧。这几年常规的教学任务有增无减,连续高三、三个理科班,加之“求师得数位学习”实践活动的推行,平日少了很多感性的时间,最多只是利用上下班的路上走走拍拍,发个微博记录下生活的点滴。至于今年能否写个总结,心里还是没底,谁知能不能中间被调去出分流题呢?还好,感谢领导照顾,但都这把年纪了还会为工作的事忐忑,唉...

前两天菊姐说她以前常看我博客的,问现在还写不写。就过去了的一年,去了几个地方、读几本书,也收获了不少,如此这些琐碎,以往多少有些记录,自己也懒着再梳理了。趁着还有点闲,还是吐吐槽,吐一槽苦水吧。
Don't get it right, just get it written. - James Thurber
印象中,工作二十多年是第二次请了一周的病假,2008年肺炎那次还是在期末[?])。大上周学部大会,教学主任总结中提到我病假一周,上周食堂早餐,德育主任还主动问起病情,这两天学部教化学和教数学的两位骨干相继住院,大家都很敏感,也议论纷纷...我目前只是咽炎,想来有点惭愧。虽然工作生活大家各有各的不易,但平日感冒挺到好的那些老师们着实更不易。我甚至好奇,这里什么样的遭遇能唤起同情?同情究竟长什么样呢?

“人的一生有一个半童年。一个童年在自己小时候,而半个童年在自己孩子的小时候。” 按余光中的说法,消极了讲,我最多有半个童年,还是长大后从老家那零零散散听来的。但乐观想,当教师的多少也能从学生那得到点童年的补偿,按照100个学生补偿0.1个童年计算的话,我的童年也会比平常人多不少。以后大家看到课堂上淘气的我要多多担待,权当是对我童年缺失的补偿吧。

年末了,各班课代表来邀请参加元旦班会,我坦白讲了不会参加。他们还不太了解课堂外的我通常把人群当成沙漠,况且那节日恐惧症的阴影犹在[?]...课代表阿龙说他也不喜欢群体的娱乐。还说,午间从楼上常常看到我一个人低着头快步走向教学楼,而别的老师三五成群的...其实与这学期午间运动从篮球改成跑步有关,加之嗓子不好,课下也尽量少说话。当然,我也很是享受“内心的狂欢”...


没有18岁的旧照,让我的手机摄影启蒙老师拍了张新的[?],当是辞旧迎新纪念吧,不过和本文情绪有反差~
I always knew looking back on my tears would bring me laughter, but I never knew looking back on my laughter would make me cry. - Cat Stevens
母亲过世的那夜,凌晨睡梦里,我是被父亲和妹妹的哭喊惊醒;辞旧迎新的鞭炮声中,我是在老家的炕上眼见父亲蹬腿咽气。就如经历过的清贫让我容易对物质满足,很小就直面过死亡的恐惧,让早活过了父母的年龄的我对寿命已是知足了。有人说“今天是你余生的第一天”(Today is the first day for the rest of your life),这话我更多时候的理解是“今天可能是你生命的最后一天”,这或许也是向死而生吧。

把日子过成诗,一般是在把日子过成唯美诗的愿望中把凄美诗过成了日子吧...现在已不在意生活的诗是唯美还是凄美,是长诗还是短诗,简单就好,精致更好。自己能做的,无非是把能把控的做到更好就好。而一但不能在身边寻找到美好,那就去书里寻找...

苦水吐完了,剩下的是过去的一年心存的感念和奋斗的余温,虽然“新年如旧年一样”的愿望是顶奢侈的,还是希望2018请继续对我更好一点~

前几天提前续交了物业费,今早出门,车卡显示还有366天...

十二 29


摘抄的英文句子过五百了,抽空重读了下,有的已经看不懂:(,顺便再挑了些更喜欢的:
1.Everyone's heart is a piece of sea, shining bottomless blue.
2.I always in the deepest despair, meet the most beautiful surprise.
3.Quotation is the highest compliment you can pay an author.
4.A reader lives a thousand lives before he dies… The man who never reads lives only one.
5.I always knew looking back on my tears would bring me laughter, but I never knew looking back on my laughter would make me cry.
6.When you want knowledge as you have just wanted air, then you will have knowledge.
7.There is no garden without its weeds.
8.Remember: The person who speaks two languages is worth two.
9.But all sunshine without shade all pleasure without pain is not life at all.
10.We read the world wrong and say it deceives us.
11.Do not argue with an idiot. He will drag you down to his level and beat you with experience.
12.To teach is to learn twice.
13.Pain is inevitable Suffering is optional
14.We fear loss more than we value gain.
15.The soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears.
16.Never let success get to your head. And never let failure get to your heart.
17.If you tell the truth, it becomes a part of your past. If you lie, it becomes a part of your future.
18.Every story has an end. But in life, every ending is just a new beginning.
19.If you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together.
20.No matter how many mistakes you have made or how slow you have progressed, you are definitely way ahead of everyone who hasn’t started trying.
21.A ship in port is safe, but that’s not what ships are built for.
22.Life is like freshly fallen snow. Be careful where you walk, because every step will show.
23.The human hand is incapable of making a perfect copy.
24.Every one is a moon and has a dark side, which he never show to anybody.
25.Like sunlight, sunset, we appear we disappear, we are so important to some, but we are just passing through.
26.Question is a journey for student and teacher to quest together.
27.Don’t worry about doing research, Just search.
28.Life is like a hot bath. It feels good while you're in it, but the longer you stay, the more wrinkled you get.
29.I am not what has happened to me, I am what I choose to become.
30.If wrinkles must be written upon our brows, the only thing you can do is not letting them written upon the heart.
31.When the going gets tough, The tough get going.
32.Today is the first day for the rest of your life.
33.Chemistry is physics without though, Mathematics is physics without purpose.
34.Dance as if no one is watching, work as if never need money, Love as if never been hurt.
35.Many leaves, One tree.
36.Today, at the edge of our hope, at the end of our time, we have chosen not only to believe in ourselves, but in each other.
37.The teacher is not the sage one the stage, but a guide on side.
38.Everything that needs to be said has already been said. But since no one was listening, everything must be said again.
39.All flowers are not in one garland.
40.When I get busy I get stupid.
41.Always be reading a book is a lens to see the world through.
42.The land did not move, but moved. The sea was not still, yet was still.
43.The best way to get approval is not need it.
44.The task of education is not to teach subject, it is to teach students.No school is better than it’s teacher.
45.I’m a slow walker, But I never walk backwards.
46.When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do no see the one which has been opened for us.
47.Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are.
48.Happiness isn’t getting all you want, It’s enjoying all you have.
49.I always like walking in the rain, So no one can see me crying.
50.Don't get it right, just get it written.
51.Collect moments not things.
52.The size of a man may be measured by the size of the things that make him angry.
53.To travel hopefully is better thing than to arrive.
54.It's not the hours you put in your work that counts, it's the work you put in the hours.
55.The greatest risk in life is to risk nothing.
56.In French, Amateurs means “lover”.
57.Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.
58.Use your smile to change the world. Don’t let the world change your smile.
59.Reason why we have two ears and only one mouth is that we may listen the more and talk the less.
60.It takes courage to follow your mind. But it takes everything to follow your heart.
61.Life is not about waiting for the storm pass. It’s about learning to dance in the rain.
62.God give answers in three ways: He say yes and give you what you want. He say no and gives you something better. He says wait and gives you the best.
63.You laugh at me for being different, but I laugh at you for being the same.
64.An ounce of action is worth a ton of theory.
65.Pain makes you stronger. Tears make you braver. Heartbreak makes you wise. So, thanks the past for a better future.
66.Whenever two people meet, there are really six people present. There is each man as he sees himself, each man as the other person sees him, and each man as he really is.
67.Fate as hand palm, no matter how tortuous, always in their own hands.
68.Anybody can sympathize with the sufferings of a friend, but it requires a very fine nature to sympathize with a friend's success.
69.It's in the nature of the human being to face challenges. We're required to do these things just as salmon swim upstream.
70.Not teaching for perfect, but learning only for improvement.
71.Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.
72.Don’t reinvent the wheel.
73.I’m not perfect Never have been Never will be
74.Love all trust few do wrong to none
75.We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give.
76.A life with love will have some thorns, but a life without love will have no roses.
77.When people realize they being listened to , they tell you things.
78.To agree without understanding is inane. To disagree without understanding is impudent.
79.If they throw stones at you, don’t throw back, use them to build your own foundation in stead.
80.You don’t became what you want, you became what you believe.
81.Victory isn’t defined by wins or losses. It is defined by effort. If you can truthfully say:I did the best I would. I gave everything I had. Then you’re a winner.
82.We can't help everyone, but everyone can help someone.
83.Talent is God given. Be humble. Fame is man-given. Be grateful. Conceit is self-given. Be careful.
84.My last salutation are to them who knew me imperfect and loved me.
85.Pain past is pleasure.
86.Better keep yourself clean and bright; you are the window through which you must see the world.
87.Smoke boasts to the sky, and Ashes to the earth, that they are brothers to the fire.
88.We don’t make movies to make money, we make money to make more movies.